So I've realized that I am simply not cutting it as a homemaker or even as the woman I want to be. I always hear about all my friends who have one or two kids, still cook nutritious meals, have time to read incredible books, run 5ks, and sew enough to supply local charity crises. Then there's me, I can't even seem to regularly wipe down my kitchen counters. I guess I just always thought I'd be such a great homemaker and that once I finished school I'd have all the time in the world. Not true! It seems to all come down to the fact that when I get home from work I don't feel like cooking or cleaning, or cleaning after cooking, etc. It has completely solidified for me that I do not ever want to work full time and be a mom at the same time. I don't know how they do it! I don't even have kids and I struggle to keep up with the housework and the grocery shopping. And although I've complained about my deteriorating fitness level, I still don't manage to get to the gym nearly enough. So. . .
I devised a "brilliant" plan to accomplish the things I wish I did more, but don't get around to it after work: wake up at 5 am. Now I was waking up at 5am for nearly 4 months to help Russell get to work (I decided that it is super hard for one to wake up early to get ready for work when someone else is enjoying the comforts of a soft bed), but it became a habit to sneak back to bed once he left. Really, a much bigger waste than it may sound--the hard part is getting out of bed, and I already had that step taken care of.
Anyway, back to my brilliant plan, which I am really truly hoping I stick to! But we all know how even the best intentioned goals turn out. So help keep me on track! Anyway, if I wake up at 5, I can clean up my apartment for at least 30 minutes, read my scriptures for another 30, workout, shower and get ready for work, and even make and eat breakfast with Russell. Much better than my regular morning scrambles--justifying to myself that I can get ready within 10 minutes of departure time.
So, I did it yesterday and I was completely thrilled for the entire day. It was an incredible start. So today, not so enthusiastic as the alarm went off, still beat the temptation to hit snooze and got up on time, remembering my day from heaven the day before. Cleaned up all the clutter in my living room, read my scriptures, and fell asleep. Bummer. So much for that fit body I'd like to find again. At least I still managed to make us breakfast.
Anyway, I hope I can, or actually, WILL, keep it up. Maybe check up on me and see how brilliant my brilliant plan actually is. They say if it is important enough, you'll do it. I just hope that includes me.
Other Suzie-homemaker moments for the day (I know many of these things seem simple, but ever since I got married, it has been so hard to transition back to a regular routine!):
Sewed on the baby blanket I am making
Did the dishes RIGHT AFTER DINNER
Took out ALL garbages and put the can on the street
Threw out a lot of junk mail
It's a small start, but they say small changes are easier to sustain.
4 comments:
I am proud of you. I started a similar thing...suddenly I was waking up well before my alarm and feeling great. But...I find even when I am awake I like to snatch some more bed time...and fall asleep for longer and am more tired. Willpower is hard!
Maybe we can start a motivating program together or something.
Sounds like you've got a good plan. It is amazing how much you can get done early in the morning. I'd say its okay to sleep in every once in awhile though :). I'll be in Utah all of August. We need to get together. I need your phone #.
super-mom/wife!!!!!
keep at it
don't become another depressed mormon housewife
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